So it is really happening. I am here. I always knew the day would come, but I didn’t know how I would feel, and to be honest as I type I am still trying to figure it out. Let me rewind a bit so you will have a clear picture of our subject matter.
I’m turning the big 4-0 this year and I’m not sure yet how I feel about it. First, let’s address the whole ‘Big 4-0’ thing. Is it really still considered the Big 4-0? Or do you just turn 40? Perhaps we are going with 40 is the new 20? Maybe, it’s “Oh, sh*t! I’m about to be 40.” And somewhere in between all of that commotion is little ole me. A lot of people will read this and have no clue that I am approaching a milestone, whether it be because they don’t think I look or act my age, even though 40 is definitely different on my generation than my parents.
So, what is 40 suppose to look like. To be honest- I don’t feel 40. I personally don’t think I look 40. Are you suppose to be at a certain place by the age of 40? Because there are some areas in my life that are not quite what I thought they would be today. But, I guess I’ve always been a late bloomer. I didn’t have my first real kiss until I was 18, (I’ll stop right there, but I was very grown for everything else). I ‘ve only been married for a little over 2 years so I was kinda late to that game as well- although I couldn’t be happier that I waited for my King created for me.
Children. According to doctors and science, I have just about reached the end of my child-bearing years, which is quite unfortunate it’s that’s true. Should I have had a baby with any ole person to beat the clock, or give up the idea of being someone’s mother because I’m older. Career. Yeah, it could use some growth. I want to work for myself full time and I am just not there yet. (Make sure you share my blog and all my post on your social media to help me get there! Thanks in advance).
So, as I said, I’m not even sure how I feel. I was telling my husband a couple of days ago, I of course am thinking of everything related to my life, and I’m ok, but I pray that I don’t at some point have a mid-life crisis or any kind of breakdown! Really all I can do is keep doing what I’ve always done. Not worry about what I’m suppose to be doing or what and where everyone else is in life. I can only control me. Whatever the most high has in store for me will be just enough for my heart and soul. Maybe I won’t hit full entrepreneurship for another 5 years, but I trust I will get there.
I know I don’t have to be this fat when October 22nd (that’s the big day) rolls around. I can definitely stop eating everything in sight and focus on being healthy, and I plan to do so. In the next 6 months I will work on the things that are in my power. I will as always try to be the best person I can be, and stop letting people control me, by making me angry or sad. I will have fun trying to have a baby and if not, we had fun trying! I will work hard on getting my brand out to the masses and I will do more to volunteer and help others when I can. I want to make sure that I embrace life more and cherish every unique opportunity. I am going to live in the moment. Live more, not just exist (as one of my FB friends reminds me to do weekly!)
Do you have expectations for your life at 40? Is there a certain place you plan to be? How will you handle not having kids or being married when you hit that milestone in your life?